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Accepting Our Emotional Scars | The Lost Village

Hello everyone and welcome to our place!

Today I bring you an array of thoughts that I actually was thinking in writing about last week. However, since The Lost Village ended up having so much backlash I decided to go with a review and sort of defend this Anime. But, here’s a new Tuesday and it’s time to go a little further in what The Lost Village taught me / made me thing about, which is:

– Accepting Our Emotional Scars –

the lost village facing your fears

We all have emotional scars. Some of us present bigger ones, others present smaller ones. But, in the end we all have emotional scars to lead with. In my case, I would say I have a medium scar that I need to deal with every single day of my life. I’m not going to talk about it since it’s way too close to heart and implies talking about people who did not apply for having their life talked about in a Blogging format.

Nevertheless, they are still here. As you may know, much of Mayoiga theme ends up accepting one’s emotional struggles and fears. When I was watching each one of the characters being physically faced by their own feels and accept them I just ended up thinking about how I dealt with my emotional scars. To be honest I still don’t know if I was able to accept them or if I just threw them under the rug and let them be there.

But, let’s starts with how I handled things when these scars were still opening. It all started in my youngest teens and it only started to get better in my twenties, so you can see that much time passed there.

– Highschool Time –

anime highschool

This was the time where everything was happening, where my safety net was not there and felt all my life shaky and ready to colapse in any minute. Here, it was also when I had depression. However, contrary to what someone would think, these were the times where I was the most popular, talked to everyone and made the highest number of “friends”.

The thing is, things were not right, but I saw school as my safe place. When I entered my school ground I would just put aside all of my problems. I laughed, I talked (a lot), I skipped classes to be with my friends and in the end, the only thing you could see was an extroverted, popular guy who seemed to be able to befriend anyone. And, to be honest, that’s not a lie… At all. That’s what I did in a daily basis and I was, in fact, popular.

Moreover, my grades never slipped even once. Yes, in my 10th grade my average was not that great, but you can blame that on the difference of the way you learn versus 9th grade, or being in the worst class in all Highschool. Of course, this was not the case, but that’s what people thought. But, after that year, my grades went up again and I even entered in the excelence board at my school in my senior year.

anime popular highschooler

Yeah, that is right. There was even people that were envious of me, this because they could only see a guy with extremelly good grades, popular, confident, not that ugly and a nice girlfriend. However, they didn’t knew what was really happening in my life. If they did they would never be envious of, not at all.

So, did I accepted what was happening to me in that time? No, not really. In fact, I think the only thing I did was to enter a buble and fake that everything was ok when it wasn’t.

– College Years –

anime college

My first year on college was the most difficult year in my life so far. First, I went away of my hometown and went to Portugal’s capitol. Second, I entered in the degree I wanted, in the school I wanted… But, in the end of the day I hated it. Not even a semester in and I was already skipping classes. It was not that I wouldn’t be able to do good in it, but I just hated it all and I prefered to stay at home. Moreover, this was the time I really got addicted in League of Legends, worst thing I could ever do. I just feel I lost a year of my life in there.

However, difficult as it may be, it was an extremely important year for me. This was the year that I finally felt everything that I was hiding for years. Every scar that was opened started healing slowly and it hurt like hell! How did I got out from that hole, I don’t really know, but I survived it and was able to start over.

anime relief

The year aftewards I decided to change degrees and went to management. Again, I entered the degree I wanted, in the school I wanted… But, this time I really liked I was doing it. Things went completely different. I did all sort of things and my life couldn’t be more filled. However, again, I entered my bubble and forgot about my scars. 3 years later I had my anxiety problems. It seems that I buckled in so much that I would go and burst it out sooner or later, well 3 years it was. That’s what you get when you don’t like to speak up I believe.

Nevertheless, this time it was different. I had something that I didn’t have when I was younger, the love of my life and my boyfriend. He helped me a LOT and I will be forever grateful for it. This time I attacked the situation in a cold and analytical way. I thought about everything, I went the deepest I could to understand what was happening, understand them and accept them.

– Present Years –

anime fresh start
It’s like being in the clouds really

Ok, it has been 3 years since I got out of college. Nevertheless, I’ll call it present years. My life nowadays is nothing compared to 10 years ago (of course). I’m now living with my boyfriend and basically have a family with him (our children is our plants) and, therefore, my priorities are a little different.

Did I accepted my past scars? Yeah, most of them! I can say that I had! They are still there, I still dream about them from time to time making my next day a difficult one to pass, but, in the end, I’ve accepted them. When I look back and think about all the emotional distress I had to face, I ask myself how the hell I was able to survive that. How the hell I found the strenght to continue with the thoughts of a brighter future. The truth is, I did survive and I reached my brighter future.

Is it done, though? Is everything completely ok? Nope, not at all. There are still many battles to face, some old and others which will appear in the future. However, I’ll be here to get scarred again, heal up and then accept it.

anime ready for battle face
Come at me! I’m ready!

It’s funny though. At the moment I talk way less that I did when I was a teen. Don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing. If I went from an extrovert to an introvert, or what was it. The thing is, now I feel that I only need to talk when I do have something to add up, maybe it’s also because I’m older now, I dunno. I do know, though, that the word I can describe my inner feeling at the moment is peace. Not happy, not sad, but peace.

Happiness and sadness come and go, that’s life and how emotions work. There are days I feel better, other days I feel worse. Somedays I think the blog is going really well, others feel that no-one is interested in what I’m saying. That’s how life is, that’s how moods are. However, something that remains present is, peace and peace is good!

What about you! Were you able to accept your past scars?

anime one piece waving
See You Soon! 😀

12 thoughts on “Accepting Our Emotional Scars | The Lost Village”

  1. Oh dang. If this anime helped you to reflect on your life and who you are, I can see why you would like it so much. Especially with the concept of facing past fears.

    I just wish this anime wasn’t so weird about how it went about all of this.

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  2. I wouldn’t say backlash. Lost village had a lot of promise, it just didn’t live up to expectations, can’t say much about the McGuffin hippo song though. Glad that you did find a degree you liked. More importantly, you managed to overcome your scars and move on. Some hurdles are harder than others. It boils down to the support and growth you have. And in this case, you can look back and say “I made it” with a smile. Go Art!.

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    1. Yeah, from what I could gather last week, it seems that people who watched the Anime in an episodical manner ended up liking less versus people who watched the Anime in a seating or two.

      Ahah thank you! But, yes that is true! Many obstacles I face nowadays I always end up thinking “If I was able to survive that, then I will be able to survive this” 🙂

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  3. Well…you totally did it again. As usual…here you go ahead and write a post again, that is very personal, and it ended up getting me even more interested in the anime than I already was after reading last week’s post. I should not be suprised anymore about the fact that you manage to make a post that is very personal. All I can say is well done! It takes guts to write a post like this, and I am definitely happy that you have been able to overcome the tough things. From what I gather is that it certainly wasn’t easy.

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    1. Ooooooh thank you so much Raist ☺

      Yeah, you gather that right xD But, well, scars like these make you stronger and in fact, shaped me in the way I am, so I just need to accept them and try to see the bright side. I wouldn’t probably be such a kind person if I didn’t experienced these kind of problems.

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      1. Hmm…well: I think in that way: I can relate. Definitely had those kind of experiences too, and they totally shaped me in that way. Kindness is definitely one of the best words to describe you: Thats totally for sure 😊😊

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  4. I’m glad every time I hear someone talk about how their scars have healed. It makes my heart go warm. There are hope in this world. My scars, well, they are latent at the moment but sometimes they pop up and glare at me. It’s hard some days but hey, I survived. My biggest problem is my brain; I constantly feed my scars with new scars. My mind is in a turmoil every so often. Mayoiga got me thinking about people’s scars and healing too. That was the whole purpose of them going on that trip, to run away from what was hard, what they struggled with and were afraid of. They didn’t know that they went to a place where they had to confront it and in the end deal with it to heal. I really liked that anime, I wish it had gotten all the intended episodes.

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    1. Thank you so much for the honest comment Lina ❤

      Well, it's not they sometimes do not open from time to time. Normally, those days I just try to somewhat pass through…

      The feeding new scares though is what is the most difficult to stop… Something I had to learn a LOT when I had my anxiety problesm… It's just so freaking tiring… Bah 😦

      Yeah, me 2! I think we could had more insight in all characters and not feel such a rushed ending…

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      1. Anxiety sucks but learning how to handle it helps so much, with not only the anxiety but a lot of things. It also opens your eyes to things you’d rather not see. 😕 But it’s better in the end probably. As you say, it is tiring.

        There actually is a manga that is written after they stopped airing the anime so I think you get a conclusion if you read it. It’s three volumes. I think I’m gonna see if I can find it and read it.

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